ONE WEEK!!! I am just 6 days away from meeting this precious little bundle that has taken to beating me from the inside out and I couldn’t be happier. Not because this pregnancy has been more difficult than my previous four, but because I truly do enjoy feeling each move from the growing life inside of me – even if they are painful at times.
As with parenthood, each pregnancy brings with it a new set of challenges. The first pregnancy was fairly easy, because I still had the freedom to come and go as I pleased. Slept when I wanted. Stayed up late with no worries of kids roaming the house alone in the morning. It was simply perfect.
Pregnancy number two had a different set of challenges, however. I was super sick and lost quite a bit of weight (to the tune of 38 pounds) in the first 5 months. It was difficult to take care of myself, let alone a growing, bouncing three-year old.
Then the Lord blessed with another baby just 5 short months later and I felt really good. Tired, but good. Our third pregnancy seemed to be relatively “normal” until I went in for a routine visit at 13 weeks and found out we had been expecting twins, but one had already passed. My emotions were all over the place and it took a while to process what had happened. But, just a few months later we delivered a healthy baby girl – our first girl!
On our daughter’s first birthday, we found out we were expecting another baby girl. I couldn’t believe we were having another girl. This pregnancy, short on the heels of the last one, was going along perfectly until I failed the gestational diabetes test. But, we survived that and I delivered our biggest baby to date just a few months later. She was perfect in every way.
So that brings me to this pregnancy. I have been in near constant pain since about the 5 month mark – not being able to stand or walk for long periods of time. When I did, I would often overdo it and then be in pain for days after. So, I have been on modified bed rest for approximately 4 months. Let me tell you…it hasn’t been easy with 4 kids to take care of and homeschool. They have stepped up in ways children their age shouldn’t have to. Yet, they have – for the most part – been eager and willing to help, so long as baby was healthy. After losing Isabelle, they have prayed every day for a healthy baby.
With all these challenges, how is it possible to enjoy pregnancy? Having 4 (almost 5) successful pregnancies has taught me a few things. Even when the pregnancy is tough, there are ways to enjoy pregnancy.
3 Ways to Enjoy Every Stage of Pregnancy
Focus on the good
Even if you have terrible morning sickness or constant pain, there is always something good to focus on. You are growing a new life inside of you. One that God has entrusted to YOU. I have been terribly sick and in constant pain, so I can say this – I know it’s hard. It isn’t easy to focus on the positive when you feel beat down. but remember that you are the sole support for this tiny, precious little life. And soon, you will be holding him/her in your arms and forget all the pain and sickness. Trust me…it just happens.
Enjoy the movements
One of my favorite stages of pregnancy is when I begin to feel movement. From the little butterfly movements to the big twisting and turning movements that simply take your breath away. I love them all. It reminds me that this tiny little life inside of me is not only growing, but will one day be in my arms. It is a simple reminder that God has entrusted this life to me and is growing him/her for a purpose – one that I get to help them discover, nurture and fulfill.
Focus on the life inside
During this pregnancy, I have felt defeated and worn down more than ever before. I believe this is a work of the Enemy, to get me distracted from Him. During those times I often have a good cry, because…well, every pregnant woman needs a good cry. And then, I turn to Him. The One who created this life inside me. I start reading Scriptures, singing and praising Him. This life was created by an Almighty God who has a purpose and a plan for him/her. And it is my job to raise this child in Faith.