First, I must apologize for dropping the ball the past few days. Wednesday marked the 9 month anniversary of my Daddy going Home and no matter how much I plan and how hard I try, those days seem to sneak up on me and catch me every time. 9 MONTHS!!! In some ways it seems like yesterday, because the pain is still so raw and real. But in other ways it seems like a lifetime. I miss my Dad every day. There are things each week that I wish I could share with him. Pictures I wish I could show him and videos of the boys at swim lessons that I just know he would love. And that’s when it hits me again…he’s not here. He’s not on some extended vacation or a mission trip. He’s gone…from this life…forever. That reality is still hard to accept.
Next Thursday is a day of Thankfulness. Many families across the US and world will get together for a family meal, games and just good fun. Honestly, I’m not sure how I’m going to be. This is the first “family” holiday without my Dad and I’m just not sure how it’s going to go.
This year I am in charge of the food and I’m doing most of the baking/cooking. Typically this is my maternal Grandmother’s role, but she had major back surgery about 3 weeks ago, so that is not feasible for her this year. I love to cook and I’m the one with the time at home to do it, so I volunteered to be the head of the food department. Truthfully, I’m excited about it!!! I am a hostess at heart and I’m so honored to be able to serve my family this way. So, I think my mind will be preoccupied most of the morning getting things ready and making sure it’s all done for lunch at noon.
I don’t think it’s going to really sink in until the day hits a lull. You know the time when all the men sit down to “watch” football through their eyelids?! My Dad would’ve been right there with them taking his afternoon snooze. That’s when it will hit me. When I can’t sit next to him and snuggle up like a little girl. When I can’t hear him snore and wake himself up. That’s what I’m going to miss.
Even though things are going to be different – VERY different, I am thankful. I am thankful that I still have family that I can call and talk to all hours of the night. I am thankful that I enjoy when my family gets together for the holidays. I am thankful that my Daddy was my Daddy.
What are you thankful for this year?
Join me all next week for a “Week of Thankfulness” blog hop!! Beginning Sunday you can link up your posts on Thankfulness, the ABC’s of Thankfulness or 30 Reasons I’m Thankful. As long as it tells why you’re thankful (as the main focus), link it up!!!