I found this just sitting on my computer. Although some of it is nolonger true (I have found new reasons to write), I had to finish writing it. Iknow other people must have times like this too and I hope to minister to youwho find yourself a little “lost” at times.
“I wish I was better at writing on this thing. I just haven’t felt muchlike writing. It’s been a hard couple months and I haven’t found a lot I wantedto write about. Sadness seems to be around every corner and I’m hoping we arejust getting the hard stuff for this year out of the way early. It’s soeasy to let life suck you in and get you down. It’s hard not to let Satanslip in and turn life’s difficulties into more pain and sadness. I’m normallysuch an optimistic person…..to a fault…..and it’s hard for me to feel downin the dumps. I’m great at faking a smile and pretending everything isok……even when all I want to do is cry for a whole day. I can cry with thebest of them when I’m happy or overjoyed, but sadness, pain, anger…….anythingthat makes me feel vulnerable, I bury it deep. Don’t shed a tear. I’m reallygood at hiding my imperfections and keeping people thinking “she’s got itall together”…….she doesn’t. I’m really good at leaving mytroubles at the door……even when i feel like I’m drowning in them. Idon’t have these “funks” very often, thank goodness, but then again sincethey are so rare….I don’t really know what to do when I get in one.” (Mid2011)
Then I am reminded….I am a daughter of THE King. No matter what I’vedone, what I’m going through….my value to Him is not diminished. Mydebt is paid. My pain has been felt. I have to learn to accept that andtake advantage of the beautiful gift my Savior gave to me. All of life’ssorrows, pain, heartbreak, fear, anger and suffering……Christ feltit……experienced it…..a billion times over. I have to let it go. I have todo better. I have to allow His atoning sacrifice to work in my life. It wasn’tjust for my sins……it was for all of my pain. How can I deny this gift he solovingly and selflessly gave? After all, even if I was the only one who neededsaving……He still would have come for me.
Now, here me on this. I am not saying,you should completely forget about your sadness or deny your feelings. But, Iam saying that if we don’t rely on our Heavenly Father to restore us and liftus up during those times, then who are we really? Are we really His child if we don’t run to Him withour problems?
My middles are completely attached totheir own blankies. Whenever they get hurt, scared or tired they want to findthose blankies. They want to hold them, cuddle them and rub on them. Thoseblankies make them feel safe. Protected. And most often, after they find theirbeloved blankies, they find Momma or Daddy. They want to know we’re here forthem too.
Shouldn’t we treat our Heavenly Fatherthe same way? When we have troubles, worries, hurts…should we not run to His Word for wisdom, peace and comfort.He so desperately wants us to rely on Him and only Him. He will always be there with the right words, a peacethat passes all understanding and His loving, comforting arms that hold ustight.
Allow His Word to be your “blankie”.Trust Him to do his part and He will neverlet you down. I promise!
“Look at the birds of the air, thatthey do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Fatherfeeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?” Matthew (
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Annette has been married to her husband and best friend since 2003. Together they are raising their six children to follow the Lord’s will, no matter what. Annette longs for the day when she will meet all her angel babies who have entered heaven before her. She enjoys creating fun and engaging printables, unit studies and curriculum for homeschool families. You can follow her crazy life at In All You Do where she blogs about marriage, parenting, and homeschooling all while maintaining her sanity. She is also the owner of Thrifty Homeschoolers, where she shares free printables and resources from around the web as well as deals on curriculum and homeschooling resources. You can also keep up with her via Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and Pinterest.